I’m afraid I don’t have an outfit post for you today, the above picture is actually from a fun, impromptu shoot I did with my sister last summer while on a bike ride. Today’s post is going to be a little different than most of the posts I’ve done on En Pointe Chic so far. I love fashion, and I want En Pointe Chic to be a fun little get away for people to go to when they have a few moments where you can get some fun fashion inspiration and maybe put a smile on your face. However, I also want En Pointe Chic to be so much more than that, I want it to be a community, a place where we can be real. I know it is so easy to look at the pictures and think that I lead a perfect, all blue skies kind of life. However, I am very much so a real person and I have real emotions and go through trials just like everyone else. I want En Ponte Chic to be a place where you can come to for inspiration for so much more than just fashion, a place that points you back to Jesus; so today, I am going to get very real with you here on the blog.
I named this post Blue Skies after the old Point of Grace song. The first verses lyrics are, “On days of grey, when doubt clouds my view and it’s so hard to see past my fears. When strength seems to fade, and it’s all I can do, to hold on, til the light reappears.” These are lyrics I can’t stop listening to this past week, I relate to them so much. For the past week, life has definitely had its grey days. It can be hard to sit back and watch people I care about go through hard things and not be able to do anything but just be there for them. I have been in this position a lot lately, and it can be so hard to not want to play the super hero that comes in and saves the day. However, I have had to learn that in the end, it isn’t my job to save them, it is my job to point them back to Jesus, the one who cares more for them more than I ever could. This is a lesson I have been having to learn over the course of the past several years, but this past week I am having to learn it in a whole new level. I found out that one of the ladies I work with and really look up to is losing her fight with cancer and will most likely go to see Jesus before two months is up. I have found myself clinging to Romans 8:37-39 ” For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.” She deeply loves the Lord and has kept her trust in Him and, for her, death will only be her reunion with her savior. It is so hard for us to let go though and know that I won’t see her again this side of heaven.
“Still I believe, I’m alive in your love, there is so much to see, if we keep looking up! For the skies still blue, all of my hope is in you. You’re my life, you’re the dream that’s still alive! You’re the wind at my back, and the sun on my face. You are life; you are grace. You are blue skies!”
When I discovered the news, at first I was in shock, just totally numb, but by the end of the day the numbness started to wear off and I found myself laying on the ground just sobbing. As I cried though, the chorus to Blue Skies (found up above) started running through my head, and even as I could feel the emotional storm all around me, I felt a deep peace take root deep within me. Even though all of these things have caught me off guard, they did not catch God off guard. He saw them coming and I need to keep my eyes fixed on Him. He is my blue skies, my reason for joy even when it feels like pieces of my world are falling apart.
“I have learned to kiss the wave that throws me against the rock of ages.”